A New Beginning
After the turbulent period of late pregnancy and adapting to the baby, I'm back on the Blog!
Of course I will not talk about everything that happened. It is a lot of information that cannot be summarized, so I will make posts about each experience I had soon. But today I came to talk about something else...
You may be thinking that the title is a reference to the blog, but it's not. It's about starting a new life. With Gigi here, I feel as if my life has returned to a starting point and now it's time to start all over again.
When I went to surgery, I had no idea how much my life would change in a few minutes.
Why not?! I carried her for nine months...
That's exactly it. We spend 40 weeks waiting for the baby. We had to get the apartment ready, buy diapers and everything else we needed. In addition to the necessary shopping, we did all the safety and newborn care classes, but we did not take emotional classes on how to deal with this drastic change in our lives.
You lose your identity completely. I stopped being Babi and became Gigi's mother.
The truth is that once they leave the womb, they remain attached to our body. I thought it would be super easy to go back to work, go to the pharmacy, or even get up at night to pee, but I was wrong ...
The first time I left her at home to go to work, I left milk and everything, but of course after a while she cried. She did not cry of hunger... she missed Mommy.
Thinking about peeing in the middle of the night?! Yes ... it's true, I cannot go pee by myself. I always take her to the bathroom with me because if I put her in the crib, she will cry her eyes out for sure.
When I say start over, I'm talking about the need to reorganize our entire lives: from our emotions to the home's furniture. Everything has to be in line with the needs and safety of our little girl.
Not to mention that being a mother is a challenge, but also to be able to experience everything that we do not remember from our first days. In this first phase we understand exactly why we shout 'MOOOOOOOM' when we need something. And it is also a beautiful gift to be able to live and feel everything that my mother had experienced with me.
It is not an easy path, but I did not expect that it would be. I'm still tired, sleeping way less than eight hours. I don't have time to do my nails, eyebrows, and sometimes I'm not even able to choose clothes to wear. Yes, there are days that shower time is all I have and I can't even get dressed before picking the little girl up again.
The most important thing in this whole story is to understand when the time is right to start over. It does not happen immediately when the baby is born. It can happen days or weeks later. Each person has a different timing for that, but it always happens.
Today, after five weeks, I was able to get my identity back and reorganize my life, my work, and the plans I have for the future. The most important thing is not to pressure yourself. Let everything happen in your own time and if anything does not turn out as planned, remember that in the end, everything is going to be just fine!